and my student life marked an end there

so proud of myself

didnt know myself graduated with honours till the graduation day itself

just came back from holiday

working life starting soon

its a new chapter 2 :D

no word can describe my feeling now

parents are coming

graduation is finally here

this is one of my childhood dreams comes true..

early christmas celebration

we are all happy :D

ohmygod.thingsaregettingmessy.

grad ball.

this sort of mark the end of 4 years of pharmacy

it finally comes to the end

but the end of one, the beginning of another

only until today i realized that

i am at the age where aunties will start introducing boyfriend(s) to me

guess i've really grown up

i m just too tired dealing with all sort of stuff

a day trip away from melbourne was really good

at least get the worries away for a day

enjoy the companions

chit chat have fun and talk nonsense

liar

moclobemide

potential advantages: not anticholinergic

potential disadvantages: dry mouth, constipation, dizziness

paliperidone

favourable EPS profile

side effects: parkinsonism, akathisia, dyskinesia

enough of drama

who to trust

what to believe

btw

last paper ever for my degree tomorrow

gonna smashhhhh it!

what is group assignment

you will talk for hours and hours and never reach the conclusion

what is group work

you gonna do everything when there is no one else willing to start

too bad

we can't live by our own

we can't do all things by ourselves

our whole life is - group work

side note
once i told a friend, betrayal in friendship is the worst thing ever. i hope it wont happen again.

one told me

"you will love your job if you like the person you are working with"

i am pretty sure i will love my job at least for the following year

everytime i meet/talk with my preceptor

my preceptor never fails to make me laugh

so it marked our last day of uni

progressing to auntie stage #1

got the electricity bill with a shocking amount

checked all the electricity bills for previous years

noticed few increasing rate within years

started thinking

why the electricity rate increases so rapidly

and yet my pay is still the same..

expenses are far more greater than income

totally understand how parents feel when they saw bills coming in

#auntie much

this is the period of time 

when i will get more random

time flies.

i am still in awe

it was like a dream

i still can't believe that i got a job offer for next year internship

i couldn't describe the feeling

it is so not real

but i am happy

and i want good food =P

God is good

I am not very sure about why I am still holding on

I am struggling between positive and negative thoughts

I think positively - it turned out disappointment

I think negatively - it turned out disappointment x 2

not to think about it maybe?

anyway

I am still trying

but I am not hoping for anything anymore

just for the sake of not making myself regret

我已经喘不过气来了

我可以离开到那三小时以外的城市

永远不要回来

永远不要面对现实吗

那三个星期

原来只是短暂的逃避

can i have my wish come true

back in melbourne safe and sound

and i hate to be back in melbourne

#1 placement was too good, i miss it so badly

#2 back to busy uni life - assignments, tutorials, lectures, tests

#3 tiring job hunting re-starts again

face the reality

face the life

22.

liking that shirt from taiwan

celebrated my birthday with bunch of friends

had fun time, laughed a lot

going on rural placement tomorrow

3.5-4hours driving away from the city

gonna lose all connection with the world

no internet no phone nothing

for 3 weeks

hope i will come back sane

:X

rural placement in Warrnambool

:)

tw-2

逢甲夜市

best out of all :)

why typhoon came when i was there. sigh.

tw-1

the most memorable part

i miss him so badly :(

guess what

I AM GOING TO

.

.

第23届台湾金曲奖

现场

现场

现场

现场

现场

现场

现场

现场

现场

现场

!!!!!!

I AM SOOOOOO EXCITED.

dermatology and pain - checked √

endocrinology and renal - checked √

flight itinerary - checked √

tours confirmation - checked √

im so so so excited!

one more paper to go and im done with final year 1st semester!

its just one more semester to gooooo!

btw

the weather in taiwan now is very bad

earthquake, typhoon, flood and all sorts of disasters

i pray for the land as well as my trip to taiwan next week

i pray that i will meet Jay Chou in person while i am in taiwan

nothing is impossible yea?

:D

 

if you are wondering what i am learning in pharmacy school

here you go

im just too bored

exams made me random

=X

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1

can i stop job hunting and believe that there is already ONE for me

how much faith; how much courage; how much confident i would need

challenged.

what i get challenged the most in this semester is

patience

coming out of it are

time management

emotion management

stress management

esp during pms period

things are just shit

i can't handle everything

at one time

please

few years back i had my first ever hospital placement and it wasnt a good one

so i told myself hospital is not for me

then i got a job in community and i enjoyed it actually

till this year 

i went to another hospital for placement

it totally changed my perspective to hospital pharmacy

i actually like it!

but due to the fact that international students cant do internship in public hospital

i put it aside not to think about hospital pharmacy anymore

i continued with my part time work

setting my goal of getting an intern position in community pharmacy

till i have my community pharmacy placement

that placement experience was terrible 

i hate it so much

that i started to think again

which is for me

now another hospital placement came by

it wasnt good in the beginning

until my final week my last 3rd day for this placement

i met a pharmacist

his job impressed me a lot

i went "oh my goodness this is what i want to do!"

community or hospital

left or right

i am lost

Let faith arise

Let faith arise

I lift my hands to believe again

You are my refuge, You are my strength

As I pour out my heart

These things, I remember

You are faithful, God, forever

things that I am happy with my placement so far

- free lunch from pharmacist

- free coffee from pharmacist

- free cakes for tea break

=D

update
saw this on the medication chart today
Medication: Beer 
Instruction: 1 can TDS


it totally made my day

it has been a while since i last having this kind of 'mood disorder'

urgh. why is it still so hard to deal with 

its like a cycle, never ending.

disappointed.

can the time just stop at this moment?

can i just don't graduate forever?

*living in denial*

where my holiday gone? *cryyyyy*

pure happiness :D

doing placement is like

having 3 weeks holiday with full time job

its so hard to get back to uni work after that

time for assignments, tutorials, lectures and tests!

结婚的誓词，如果只是循例念出来是没有意义的，必须要实践出来。

一件頭：＂沒人知道生命的長短，即使我們是醫生，也不能保證自己長命百歲，所以結婚誓詞沒說要保證白頭偕老，卻要保證無論健康疾病都要在一起。范子妤，我再問你一次，無論健康疾病，你願意和我不離不棄、終生不渝嗎？＂ 

once again

working with a guy pharmacist

pharmacy world does have a lot of guys.

;D

only if the problems/worries can get out of my mind for just one second...

all i need is

extra time for me to sleep in forever

and so, did anyone notice that i am not happy? hmm

im excited!

intensive 6 weeks of uni + work

and another intensive 6 weeks of placement + work

life's getting more challenging

i will make it the best semester out of all

 

FINAL YEAR

I WILL SURVIVE!

i was thinking to myself

why ppl in other wards can get patients from different countries

with different language and all weird stuff

and me everyday same thing

so i got one today *unexpectedly*

first thing my pharmacist asked me this morning was

what language do you speak

because he has a patient who only speaks mandarin

and so i interviewed the patient with some funny mandarin

because when you spent more than 3 years studying stuff in english

you couldnt be translating everything in mandarin so precisely

after the interview

my pharmacist told me

you did a good job

i was thinking

if you would ever understand our conversation, it will be a joke forever.

random thought

just a little bit of history

i always didnt feel comfortable while i was hanging around with guys

i didnt really talk much to guys before

but since last year

i got to work one-to-one with guy often

#1 i worked with a guy pharmacist back home

#2 i worked with a guy supervisor during summer research

#3 i got hang out with a guy friend almost everyday during summer

#4 i got to work with another guy pharmacist during placement

i never feel comfortable when i know i am going to work with a guy

but i dont know why

i kept allocated for being with a guy supervisor

i guess its time for me to learn to blend in well with guys

oh well.

because its chap goh mei

and its my 1st day of placement

feel grateful to have this friend

having dinner together

on this day

he made me realized that

all this while

im not alone

one last post before i leave home

its time to say goodbye again

im flying to melb with very short hair again

please, my hair please grow faster

hahah

 

so that is my 'long-awaiting' maxi dress HAHAH

im lovin' it but it is only awesome when im on heels

and it's all

chinese new year is over

i have nothing to do now

everyone is out visiting and me - at home daydreaming

:P

red

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :D

watched viral factor <3

 

im finally home

and it is always good to be home

:D

 this is what happened when u're making someone with only 4 years of chinese education texting u in pinyin

it made my days

happy new year!

1st time ever - attending a countdown event

no more sitting at home watching tv 

fireworks were great

companions were good

worked whole day on 31st

and went for dinner and countdown

what a way to end 2011

worked whole day again on the 1st

being post woman, driver, messenger

what a way to start 2012

but its sooooooo good

no matter what had happen in 2011

the thing that you should feel thankful is

you made it through

and you've reached 2012

look forward!

:D